Self hate, and regret.

[Kyle Black-Sky]

Dropping all his shit on the ground near the water, kyle lept into the water in wolf form. He had to get the blood off him. He transformed back into a human, on his hands and knees. Kyle lurched forward, puking. Although its not like he really had anything to puke up anyways. Its not like he has been eating much lately. It has been so stressfull on him... He told himself he would regret nothing. Bullshit.... He regrets everything. He hates himself. A person he once loved, now on the verge of death- no.... Phillis probably WAS dead by now. the waves carried the barf and blood far away from Kyle. Now, kyle lay in the water on his back. staring up at the stars.


The night sky was beautiful... Kyle should of died long ago though. although the water washed away the blood, Kyle could still smell and feel it... He could swear he could see it too. Memories of phillis would haunt him from now on...

He didnt expect it to be so damn hard. Its as if he had never killed before. Was he going soft or something? Or was kyle finally learning about how to love and trust again? He had to. For scooter. That is something he will never regret. Meeting scooter. He will always love scooter. But on kyle ankle, on his healed scar from when he first met phillis, there was a name carved into his flesh. deeply, yet in small writing. The name Phillis, to remind Kyle. Yes, it was stupid of him. He used the same one he attacked phillis with. The reason why he didnt want to forget, is because he wanted to remind himself of how stupid he was... All the anger, jealousy, hate, admiration....everything.

[Kyle Black-Sky]

A messenger from paineston walked over to kyles stuff, a locked box being placed beside it, and a key being placed under some clean high quality clothes for kyle. Winston was being generous, even giving kyle more then what he said he would give. The messenger quickly vanished. If Phillis wasn't dead, then they would wait till the opportune moment to kill Kyle. if they can.

[Deleted]

Roe had found this nice place by a lake to relax, and was enjoying the peace and quiet... Until the animagus started vomiting everywhere. Roe curled his nose and waited ten minutes or so, then stood and walked over to him. Kneeling, he sighed.

"You okay? Want some food?"

[Kyle Black-Sky]

Kyle glared at him. "Piss off...." He didn't want this guy near him. He got out of the water, grabbing his stuff, and moving farther down. "I'm fine. I'm not hungry. Thank you anyways. " Kyle only wanted people he knew around him right now.

[Scooter]

Scooter ran towards Kyle upon seeing him. He had been searching from him for hours after he didn't come home at the usual time he did. He quickly jumped up, hugging him as tightly as he could. "Where have you been?!" he yelled loudly. "It's so late! Why didn't you come home?!"

[Kyle Black-Sky]

"Couldn't come home looking like this...." he said silently with a weak smile.

[Scooter]

"I don't care what you look like." Scooter pouted. He could tell Kyle had a rough night. "I was worried sick. I thought maybe.. maybe something went wrong and you were hurt. I was so worried, Kyle!"

[Kyle Black-Sky]

"Sorry, scoot.... I didn't mean to make you worry so much, first thing i wanted to do to wash that stuff off of me. Couldn't walk or run around covered in it..." Kyle frowned.

[Scooter]

Scooter hugged Kyle once more, burying his face in the mans chest. He honestly felt horrible just for knowing the assassination was going on and doing nothing to stop it. But he needed to get used to it if he wanted to run away with Kyle. "So, everything went well?" he whispered, so only Kyle could hear. He managed to keep his cool. He was getting better at holding back his tears these days.

[Kyle Black-Sky]

"Yes and no...... It was difficult.... I could of done it so fast, so easy- but i didn't..... He will bleed to death, slow enough that it hurts, and that he can think, but fast enough so nobody comes looking for him. I hesitated.... I got scared....."

[Scooter]

"It's okay though! We can elope together now, like we planned." Scooter could feel Kyle shake lightly through their hug. "Lets go home, okay? It's cold out here."

[Kyle Black-Sky]

"Yeah.." Was all he could manage to say as the made their way back to the house. "King Phillis.... He saved my life a few times, showed me great kindness.... I feel like shit... I almost snapped into insanity..." His body began to shake a bit more.

[Scooter]

Scooter held onto Kyles hand and could feel the increase in shaking. He turned around and stopped walking. He was now facing Kyle. "Look me in the eyes." he said, slowly,his tone was serious, which was unusual for Scooter. "Did you still love him?"

[Kyle Black-Sky]

He looked him in the eyes, took a deep breath and thought for a moment. "No. I didn't love him still. Doesn't mean I didn't care though. He saved my life a good few times... He was the king. He had people who loved him."

[Scooter]

Scooter bit his lip. He wasn't sure what to say to make Kyle feel better. "Well, isn't that true for everyone you kill? Everyone is loved by someone. So.. don't let it get you down too much... It's just another kill for you.. right?"

[Kyle Black-Sky]

He nodded slightly. "Yeah... You're right. I'll try not to let it bother me more. I guess I'm more human then I thought..." Kyle sighed as they approached the house.

[Scooter]

When they entered the house, Scooter led Kyle to the bed. He made him sit down while he grabbed a towel. When he came back, he began to help Kyle towel-dry his wet hair so that he wouldn't be as cold. "How do you feel?" Scooter asked. "We have medicine if you need some."

[Kyle Black-Sky]

"I feel sick, and weak. I've never had medicine before because my immune system is usually pretty good. If it will put you at ease, I'll take some."

[Scooter]

Scooter smiled a bit as he gave some medicine to Kyle. "You'll feel much better, I promise." After a moment of silence, and not a single smile from Kyle, Scooter sat down. "Hey, save the regrets for after we leave Avaleur, okay? We don't have much time to waste before they start looking for who did this.. We should get going soon." Scooter explained, trying to be calm. "And hey, you should be happy. We're gonna have a great life together, right?"

[Kyle Black-Sky]

Kyle finally smiled....but then he took the medicine and made a hilarious disgusted face. "What's in this stuff!?"