Without Hope

[Denzel Kumori]

Denzel bit her lip and looked down at the book in her hand, reading it out loud.
" When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting...."

It was a poem called loveless. She didnt know why, but she liked it. The words made sense to her, and had real meaning. It took her mind off the fact that she was without any hope of getting better.

with a deep breath, she started to read again. Not really pausing between act one and two.

"Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take it to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface
The wandering soul knows no rest

There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess
Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds

Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul
Pride is lost
Wings stripped away, the end is nigh", narrowing her eyes, she looked at the statue. It made her wonder who it was.

[Steele]

"Such is... the fate of a monster." Steele says with his arms folded at the entrance of the empty church. He hardly ever spoke without an accent, but he'd memorized that poem ever since he first read it as a boy.
"Even if the morrow is barren of promises,
nothing shall forestall my return.
If this world seeks my destruction...
... It goes with Me"
Normally Steele would have made a cruel joke or said something harsh to Denzel but he was different this time. For once he didn't have a smug grin on his face, he didn't rudely approach someone, he wasn't even smiling.
Steele slowly walked into the Church.
"Ye..are familiar with thee Acts of Loveless then?" He asks.

[Denzel Kumori]

She nodded hesitant. " sorta. its kinda my favourite... and it means alot to me. The words actually have meaning." With a sigh, denzel pulled an apple out of her pocket and continued to poem.
"Even if the morrow is barren of promises,
Nothing shall fortell my return

To become the dew that quenches the land,
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice" Carefully, she placed the apple by the alter.

[Steele]

"Ye seem to come to this church a lot." Steele says sitting on one of the chairs.
"Any pirticular reason hinny?"

[Denzel Kumori]

Biting her lip, denzel thought hard for a moment. " I come to the church every now and then to think, pray, and....yeah. "she laughed nervously.

[Steele]

Steele just laughed.
"Yee actually believe the lies they tell yee." He says shaking his head.
" Yee great nit."

[Denzel Kumori]

" i dont pray to a god.i dont even call what i do praying. all i do is sit there in silence for long periods of time. " she clenched her fist, trying to keep control. they are in a church after all. "Did you just come here to insult me, dog boy?"

[Steele]

"Dog boy" He thought to himself, the words stung a bit.
"Alright then." He said. "So ye come here just ti sit in silence fir long periods of time?Din't act like yer so high and mighty fanger, tis time ti get real with ourselves. A vamp nd' werewolf, who would listen ti our prayers?"
He grabs the apple off of the alter by the stem and holds it.
"Ye try ti run from who ye are din't ye? Tis why ye come here, ti remind yeself' that yer not one of them." He tosses the apple up and catches it.
"But fanger, ye and me. We're not what we try ti be. Ye can't tell me ye look at one of yer friends and ye don't think that they'd make a decent meal. We can't run from that, tis our nature, we're predators."
He quickly and suddeny tosses the apple to Denzel.

[Denzel Kumori]

She catches the apple and accidental crushes it to a pulp, glaring at him. "i dont need to be reminded of the monster i am. yeah..... i try to be what I'm not... a Monster. So what?" Denzel hated what and who she was. No matter how hard she tried, she was always attracted to the scent of blood...her friends only recently started to look appetizing though.

" i dont care if I'm a monster..." she lied " I distance myself and come here to think so that i dint kill anybody. i dont need a..... werewolf- telling me the obvious." For a moment, denzel truly wanted to say mutt instead of werewolf.

" I don't need a reality check." she was fighting to stay sane, and not attack him. it wouldn't be smart to attack a werewolf... especially in a church.

[Steele]

"Mhhmm and if ye don't need a reality check thin why are ye so frustrated with yer self? Coming here, reading poems, sitting fir long periods of time." Steele mocked.
"Why fanger ye've got no chance. No chance at all." He shakes his head.
"Ye can't deny who ye are nd' if ye've TRUELY accepted who ye are than what are ye doin' here? Hmm? Whatever humanity ye THINK ye have will just end up splattered all over yer hand." Steele cruely says.
"Hmm, did mommy run away from Da' er was she sucked dry too? I can see it in yer eyes, that pretty face, yer mood. Yer a daddy's little girl." Steele laughs evilly.

[Denzel Kumori]

Her eye color turned from her usual grey blue, to a blood red. she wanted to rip him to pieces right then and there.

The voice in her head started up again 'You know you want to....' Denzel shook her head and turned away, walking towards the exit. "im done talking to you." she slammed the door as lightly as she could as she left the building.

[Steele]

Steele looked on with a smug look and shook his head when he realized he just pissed off the closest thing he had to a friend outside of his pack "brothers and sisters."
He just didn't understand, he just wanted to get her to accept who she was. But he just couldn't see it from her perspective.

He sighed and sat down at a chair. His former acquaintance at the Marsh was right. Everyone either hated or feared him.
Maybe a life as a wolf entirely was what he was meant for instead of this.
He looked at the splattered remains of Apple all over the floor and then to the door that was slammed.
"Come on fanger, rise above it." He stared at the door awaiting her return. "Din't run away from this."
He looked down.
"Please." He says desperately.

[Denzel Kumori]

she crossed her ams as she sat against the door. "I dont want to run away... But i have no choice. If i accept what i am now, who knows what will happen. If i loose control, then things- bad things will happen. People die when vampires loose it. Ive am trying to protect the people i care about. Thats why i keep isolating myself. My mother had to give up everything so she could be with him. You would be surprised in how kind my father is...even if he is a vampire. he doesnt kill who he feeds off of." she said through the door. With a pause, denzel sighed.

"You wouldnt understand...."

[Steele]

"Nay i don't understand'." He says.
"Fanger how's isolating yerself' worked so far? Yer miserable, and all thee cravings do is comeback. Weather it'd be today, tomarry, next week' all they do is come back. Yer friends win't be around fer ever hinny, but yer cravings will. What tis humanity other than being a pawmat fer people ti walk all over. Yer unique hinny, embrace it." Steele says.

[Denzel Kumori]

she stood up and opened the door, looking at him with blurry tear filled eyes. He did understand her. "b-but what if they dont like me for what i really am?"

'im acting like such a child...' she thought to herself.

[Steele]

"Well then ye'll be just like me." Steele says with a smile.

[Denzel Kumori]

"No... i wont be just like you!" Denzel ran off again.

[Steele]

Steele just smiled. He knew he had gotten through to her this time, and it was only a matter of time now...