Mourning

[Denzel Kumori]

(please ignore the snow in the picture)

Denzel stiffly walked over to the grave. she was once again pale. She's been crying and hasn't eaten since the incident. she wasn't hungry, and she constantly felt sick to her stomach. Denzel slowly put a bouquet on the grave, blinking her tears away. she didnt speak, or pray. she was barely even breathing.

She walked over to a small building and shakily drew her breathe. Denzel began to cry. Not just your average cry. It was a heart broken, terrified, mournful, cry.

'its all my fault...' she thought to herself, and only herself. She never let Raven into her thoughts anymore. She hasn't spoken once since the incident. She was sick and in pain. The wounds may be healed, but the pain is still there, along with the shock.

'everyone hates me...he should of let me die. I don't deserve to live...he did nothing to deserve to die.' The thoughts kept coming in as she replayed every single moment of that day in her mind. Dante's smile smile was one of the things that she saw the most, and it killed her mentally each time.

Phillis and his words mentally stabbed her. Things will never be the same.

Not to mention all the people she killed...

[Phillis Von Christ]

Phillis was hesitant to visit Dantes grave. He'd been an emotional wreck since the incident and just lost track of everything.

As he approached, he heard the sound of a girl crying. He followed the sound, which lead him to Denzel. He didn't know what to say, but he knew he had to say something to her.

"Hey." Phillis said, as he walked towards her slowly.

[Denzel Kumori]

Denzel could barely look at him, let alone talk to him. She nodded to acknowledge his presence there. She noticed that phillis looked pretty bad too... He lost somebody very important. Denzel could see that dante was more then important to phillis.

'i tried to kill him' she reminded herself. Its one of the reasons she wouldnt look at him.

'it wasnt actually me trying to kill him though....it was Raven....i couldnt do anything but watch...'

[Phillis Von Christ]

"You don't have to say anything, that's fine." Phillis said after a moment of silence. "But don't blame yourself for what happened. It wasn't your fault. That's all I have to say."

[Denzel Kumori]

Denzel knew that she still wasnt forgiven, but she just sat in her sadness. for a moment she stared at the grave. "i-im s-so s-sorry" she choked and buried her face in her hands. it was the first time she has spoken since the incident. she wished that she could hug phillis tight and never let go. Denzel sounded worse then she looked.

[Phillis Von Christ]

"Don't be." Phillis replied. " Instead of apologizing to his grave, you should thank him. I know he doesn't regret what he did for you."

Phillis knelt in front of the girl. "It's going to take people awhile to get over this, that's obvious but they are going to move on. Everyone understands the position you were in, you were as much a victim as everyone else. So don't be so hard on yourself."

[Denzel Kumori]

She looked up at him, not knowing what to say exactly...but she threw her arms around him and hugged him tightly. She was being very gentle though. "You dont know how hard it is to live with yourself after loosing control and killing people....i had to watch everything and not be able to do anything about it. if i had been stronger, dante wouldnt of-!" she sobbed each word as she told him. It made her heart hurt. Some people could say she was almost over reacting.

[Phillis Von Christ]

Phillis hugged her back gently. "It's fine," he said, as he patted her back. " It hurts, I know. Don't blame yourself, you couldn't do anything to stop it, and nobody blames you for that."

[Denzel Kumori]

"But people WILL blame me for it...." she wiped her eyes and cleared her throat.

[Phillis Von Christ]

"They won't though." Phillis said, letting go of the girl. "I've heard people talking around town. They're a little scared, yes, and rightfully so. It was a terrifying night, but if anything, everyone has been wondering about you.. If you were okay, or if you needed someone to talk to."

[Denzel Kumori]

Denzel was shocked that people were wondering about her and stuff. Truth was, she really needed someone to talk to right now...she needed someone to be with her.

[Phillis Von Christ]

Phillis sat beside the girl, sighing as he ran a finger through his hair. He looked like a mess, he had stopped caring about his appearance lately.

[Denzel Kumori]

She took looked at him as he sighed and sat beside him, resting her head in him. "you look perfect. so tell me, what would you look like if you werent like you are now?"

[Phillis Von Christ]

"I'd probably look a lot cleaner." Phillis chuckled. Maybe I'd look less miserable..

[Denzel Kumori]

she laughed slightly. "this town is a mess.." she looked at the massive grave.

(( keep in mind that i was just tempted to call Phillis a Beautiful mess @_@ ))

[Phillis Von Christ]

Phillis nodded. "It's going to be for awhile." He said, as he stood up. " But people are working together a lot better now."

((LOLOL))

[Denzel Kumori]

She sighed. " of all the people in the world, why us? He....he didn't deserve to die. I shouldn't be alive, he should be."

[Phillis Von Christ]

"He would hate to hear you talk like that." Phillis said, turning to face her as he stretched his arms. " It was his choice, and instead of wasting this life he's given you, you should be using it the best you can."

[Denzel Kumori]

"yeah...your right phillis.... But i wish it didnt have to be this way..." she started to cry again.

[Phillis Von Christ]

Phillis patted her head. "There, there." He said awkwardly. He had finally run out of things to say.